what if...?

I can't reach for the stars. 

They are too far. 

But that's why they keep on shining...

também oiço esta (por estranho que pareça), 

embora me recuse a meter aqui o vídeo. ;)

despite it all, there is love...

...

more than words

more than thoughts

more than tears

girl, go to bed and shut up... you make no sense at all... ;)

Late at night… 

She woke up and looked at the ceiling. Once again the same smell, the same colours, the same feelings...

And the bed got too hot, too suffocating, too small for her tiny body...

She got up and headed straight to her magic balcony. And even before looking, she knew. The moon was right in front of her. Beautiful. Big. Bright... And she stared for a few moments. 

And she remembered. She remembered him… She remembered the conversations, she remembered the feelings, she remembered the desire, the possibilities... 

But then she remembered the differences. And she thought about her own life and realized that it was not what she wanted. No, definitely it was not what she wanted. It would change a lot... But it surely felt nice being wooed. So, let’s not close that door. Keep it open and let’s see…

And she stared back at the moon. And the moon told her to think about that last time. And she felt warm inside. She would even say she was feeling hot. But no! She knew perfectly that was not something to last. Maybe to repeat, but without any strings attached.

And once again she felt lost. And she knew she had to think about what had awaken her. Not something specific but she knew the reason. Or the reasons...

The mixed feelings. The wanting. And the not wanting. She had expressed her fears some nights ago and got even more confused. Well, maybe because she could understand her. And she wanted some of the same things. But not everything. Oh no!!! She always refrained herself. And that was really annoying. But well, she knew she had to deal with the situation sooner or later. And the fears would persist. Even after… Because life is difficult, but it is also very easy…

Well, no answers here. Just questions… Questions that would remain and that time would solve. Hopefully…

And she turned back to that other reason. The one which had occupied her mind for a while. Because she wasn’t sure he understood her. She thought he did, but wasn’t sure. And the time apart was good. Good to decide some things. And everything was decided. She decided to…

Well, what she decided isn’t important anymore. Because he helped. But he also made it difficult…

Back to bed she thought about herself. A grown-up woman. In every sense of the word. Well, a bit like her angels. No wishes for commitment and still yearning for them every day and night. And she knew she had the wisdom to see the truth and accept it. And to let life flow without plans. And to love and be loved.

And she knew she would make them happy. And they would make her happy.

And life felt safe. Even with all the insecurities. Why? Because a smile is the best thing in the world. And she had all the reasons to smile.

And she got ready to sleep. But she didn’t. Well, what the hell, things aren’t always like we want or she would be in a very distant place drinking a cup of wine next to a lovely lake and dreaming… So she laid down in bed…

And without realizing it, she dreamt.

A sofa. An interesting film. A warm hand… And she woke up. And took a shower… ;)

Informação de importância extrema: 

está tudo decidido. 

Cada vez mais a decisão fundamental é 

"não decidas nada porque entretanto alguém muda tudo" 

cooking, drinking and waiting... *

 

and listening to some loud music...

???

we can fly

poor is the man

primeiro e último

ainda me lembro.
não como se fosse hoje, mas lembro-me bem.
o nervoso miudinho...
o coração a bater forte...
esquecer que o mundo inteiro nos rodeava e concentrar-me naquele momento...
e os dias seguintes, loool, os dias seguintes...
ah, como é bom ser-se inocente...
e outros que vieram,
rápidos, demorados, escondidos, roubados, felizes, tristes, mas sempre, sempre, tão deliciosos...

agora as memórias estão mais vivas,
mas apesar do tempo, a nervoso continuou,
o coração bateu com a mesma energia de sempre...

porque será?
será pela verdade do desejo???

uma coisa é certa,
sempre, mas sempre, tão deliciosos... *

quero mais...

* bem, talvez exceptuando alguns... mas nada que seja relevante neste momento :)

#x%fs&"@k£g*$

fuck, fuck, fuck

sobre a pouca vontade de trabalhar *

miúda, que raio estiveste tu a ver?
agora, diz-me lá, como é que vais dormir???

não vais, né?

ou então vais sonhar...

só espero que acordes!!!

* ou a noção de que já está quase tudo feito. 

quer dizer, tudo, tudo ainda não,

mas já dá para respirar...

thank god...

Thank you

Por me fazeres sorrir,
por me dares energia,
por me trazeres tranquilidade,
por me conheceres bem,
por me dares raspanetes,
por poder confiar (para tudo...),
por me dares conselhos,
por me incentivares,
por me estenderes a mão quando preciso,
por me fazeres comer (até demais),
e dormir (quando não me acordas de madrugada...),
e acordar,
e conduzir mais devagar (às vezes...),
por me animares com músicas aos berros,
por apareceres nos meus sonhos,
e sonhares comigo com a casa com lareira e um rio,
por partilhares o meu sofá, ;)
e os segredos...

Por me tornares muito melhor...

Por tudo e mais alguma coisa...

Mas, acima de tudo, por seres uma pessoa fantástica e um amigo que está sempre no meu coração...

e por seres um pouco mais que isso também...

exagerei? tenho de me portar bem? sempre!!! 

mas hoje não me apetece mentir...

?????

porque raio é que é sempre tudo ao mesmo tempo???

Is a smile a question? Or is it the answer?

 

- Gosto dessa carinha assim. Nota-se que andas bem...
- Oh, tou exausta...
- Então andas a meter algo pra dar um brilho especial.
- Não sejas doido...
- Nã... Esse sorriso não engana ninguém.

and you haven't seen anything...

realmente, 
um sorriso constante é algo fantástico.

e que dá energia.

apesar da ocasional cara de parva.

loooool

who needs coffee???

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy...
Girl, you are the dullest of the dullest...
And no coffee required...

Mas já chega.

Time for Johnny and Johnny...

      And Johnny later on...

:)           

tired

good morning sunshine

spring time

O calor está aí...
Parece que não veio para ficar.
Não interessa nada...

Aqui continua tempo de primavera.

Desde que o sol brilhe...